Monday, July 18, 2016

Entry Prompts for the Blocked Writers (401-500)

Half way through the list!
401- What did you get to do today?
402- Who is your best friend?
403- I really wish _________________.
404- Who is the first person you saw today?
405- What memory do you want to keep from today?
406- What makes you sweat?
407- What do you wish your job was?
408- What relationship did you nurture today?
409- What are you passionate about?
410- I realize tomorrow __________________.
411- Are you holding a grudge?
412- What was weird about your day?
413- How are you expanding your mind?
414- What word are you using too much lately?
415- How was your day today?
416- What was the first thing you saw when you woke up this morning?
417- What are three things you need to do tomorrow?
418- What is the last place you visited online?
419- Today I chose to ________________.
420- Were you a positive or negative person today?
421- Who is the strongest person you know?
422- Who do you wish had been a part of your day?
423- What is one thing you were told today that you don’t want to forget?
424- What was your weakness today?
425- The music genre I listen to the most is ________________.
426- How much did you eat today?
427- What’s worth fighting for?
428- Today I felt ___________________.
429- Did you smile or frown more today?
430- What improvements are you making?
431- What new beginnings are happening right now? What is ending as this begins?
432- What have you come through to get to the place where you are now? What have you ended, overcome or achieved to arrive at this new unfolding in your life?
433- What emotions come up for you as you start something new? Do you see a pattern with new beginnings? Are you happy with the tools you have to deal with these emotions?
434- How do you deal with fear when you’re trying something new?
435- Sometimes new beginnings are energizing and exciting – how do you deal with the drop in energy once things aren’t so new anymore? How would you like to you persevere? When do you re-evaluate your commitment?
436- Are there areas where your kids have grown and are ready for more choice? Are there areas where perhaps we are asking them to choose before they are ready for that responsibility?
437- What does it feel like to make a mistake?
438- We have to make mistakes to grow – when you reflect on your mistakes, how do you forgive        yourself?  Are you able to be grateful for the growth they enabled?
439- Think about a recent mistake that’s bugging you:
          a. What happened?
          b. Why didn’t it work the way you thought?
          c. What could you try next time to get a new outcome?
440- What did you think you would feel like when you were a grown up?  Do you feel like a  grown up now?
441- How have you grown as a parent? Where were you a year ago? 5 years? 10 years?
442- What do your children have to teach you right now?
443- What motivates you to keep growing as a person?
444- What do you need to let go of right now in order to grow?
445- What does it mean to you to “be present”? What does it mean to you to do something “mindfully”? Does it sound good? Or like a chore?
446- Why do you want to be present with your family? What is the hardest thing about being present with the people you love?
447- Who do you know who feels very present when they are with you? What do they do? How do they act that makes them so present?
448- What parts of your life are most distracting?
449- When do you have a hard time letting go and being ‘here’ in the moment? When do you “check out”? What are you checking out behaviors (i.e. I check Facebook, check email too much, etc.)
450- What are some events in your life you feel guilty about not being present for? Are you feeling guilty because you actually wanted to be there, or is this an outside pressure?
451- What will you regret most if you miss it?
452- What is your relationship with media – do you like how you use phones, computers, entertainment?
453- Make a list: What online activities take the most of your time? Which online activities do you enjoy? which ones nurture you? are necessary? and which simply take time away?
454- How do you show you’re listening? Write about what your body language is, your voice, your feelings, when you are focused on your child (or anyone).  Now, what does your body language, voice, etc. look like when you are only half focused?
455- Why did you start blogging?
456- Share your favorite affirmations
457- What is your passion?
458- Share your favorite recipe and why you love it
459- Reflect on an old photo and write about it
460- Choose a quote that inspires you and explore what it means to you
461- Record a video post
462- Share your top wellness tips
463- Write your obituary
464- List 99 things you love
465- Where is your favorite place in the world? It could be your home, a cafe, a city or a place
466- How do you manage stress? Share what’s worked for you and what hasn’t
467- Write about a challenging situation, how you handled it, and what you learnt from it
468- Interview someone – written or video (or both!)
469- Write a post on a trending # hashtag on Twitter
470- Who or what inspires you?
471- What do you do for a living?
472- How does it feel to be the age you currently are?
473- List 10 things that make you happy
474- What is the best advice your parent/s or mentor ever gave you?
475- How do you maintain balance in your life?
476- What does authenticity mean to you?
477- Share your time management tips
478- Write a movie review
479- Do you have a morning ritual? Write about it
480- If you could relive an experience in your life, what would it be?
481- Write a letter to your teenage self
482- Are you addicted to social media? Assess yourself honestly
483- How was your week?
484- Reflect on how much you have changed since 5 years ago
485- What are your top life hacks?
486- Reflect on what you were doing this time last year
487- When are you happiest in your skin?
488- Share your top parenting tips
489- What does travel mean to you?
490- Social media. Do you like it, tolerate it, or hate it. Discuss.
491- What is your earliest childhood memory?
492- List your top 10 favorite bloggers
493- Write a thank you letter to someone
494- Write about the first time you stepped foot in another country
495- Reminisce about your first love
496- Write a review of a book that has made a huge impact on you
497- If you had all of the money in the world, what would you do?
498- What memory do you cherish the most?
499- Grab a newspaper, magazine, or flick to a news site and blog about a topical heading
500- What is your favorite way to spend your weekend?

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Entry Prompts for the Blocked Writers (301-400)

301- Do you owe anyone money? Do you lend people money?
302- What is your own favorite physical feature? Why?
303- What was the worst thing you ate today?
304- I hope no one was looking when I _______________.
305- How many miles did you drive/ride today?
306- Who was the first person you saw today?
307- What’s your biggest phobia?
308- What was your first full thought this morning?
309- How full is your fridge? Healthy things?
310- What was the last healthy thing you did for yourself?
311- What did you have to wait for today?
312- What did you win?
313- Who had the biggest influence on your day?
314- What can you learn from today?
315- What was the highest point of your day today?
316- Did you pay it forward?
317- What would you like to learn more about?
318- What new TV show do you refuse to watch?
319- What decision do you wish you didn’t have to make?
320- What are you questioning?
321- What was the most recent thing you learned?
322- Where would you like to go?
323- The last doctor’s appointment you made was because ___________.
324- Name 3 things you should have done today.
325- What is the last thing you felt guilty about?
326- My life would be easier if __________________.
327- When is the last time you intentionally ‘wasted’ a day?
328- What is your favorite gadget?
329- The computer I use the most is _______________________.
330- How did you spend your free time today?
331- Were you stressed today? Why?
332- What was the last thing you said to another person?
333- Who threw the last party you went to?
334- What went perfectly about your day?
335- How old do you feel?
336- OMG! __________________.
337- What pressure did you feel today?
338- The last gift I’ve received was ________________.
339- If you could change today would you?
340- I believe ___________________.
341- What do you wish you could have skipped today?
342- Were you in control of your day?
343- What made today worthwhile?
344- Were you a good listener today?
345- I never ______________________.
346- Have you broken the law? How so?
347- Were you bored today?
348- Who is the last person you spent quality time with?
349- Who did you hug today?
350- Describe your day in one word.
351- How are you?
352- Did you do more talking or listening today?
353- What was the last stupid thing you did?
354- What’s the next book you are going to read?
355- What was the mistake?
356- What was the last gift you gave?
357- What is your mission?
358- If others described how you acted today in one word, it would be _________.
359- What is your current bank balance?
360- Describe the last piece of furniture you purchased.
361- Describe the last time you were embarrassed.
362- How did you improve yourself today?
363- How much time did you spend outside today?
364- In one year from today, what word do you hope best describes your life.
365- Who in your life is crazy talented? What is their talent?
366- What do you wish there was more of in the world?
367- My favorite sound is _________________ .
368- What impact do you hope to have on the world?
369- If you made laws, what one would you make today?
370- Describe your last life-changing moment.
371- What opportunity are you waiting for?
372- What is the last movie you saw?
373- What is standing in your way?
374- What was the happiest headline in the news today?
375- What decision are you glad you made?
376- Share some good advice.
377- What occupied your mind today?
378- What was the best conversation you had today?
379- If you could get rid of one of your habits, what would it be?
380- List 5 things you wish you had with you today.
381- What are the achievements you are most proud of?
382- What gadgets did you use today?
383- What shocked you?
384- What was the last lie you told?
385- What is your favorite cuisine?
386- What do you have too much of?
387- What do you want to tell yourself in one year?
388- What is your greatest strength?
389- Other than your clothes, what was with you the majority of the day?
390- What’s your guilty pleasure?
391- What is bothering you?
392- What inspires you?
393- What impression did you make on others today?
394- What did you give up on today?
395- Name the last three things you used today.
396- What sound do you hate hearing?
397- Do you feel appreciated?
398- My body is ______________________.
399- Today I had too much ________________.
400- What worries you?

Thursday, July 7, 2016

Entry Prompts for the Blocked Writers (201-300)

Hello all... third installment.
Like I said earlier - some of these are probably repeats or not nearly as inquisitive as they should be - but you can get the feeling of the entry and elaborate as you write.

201- What is the last thing that made you cry? Joy or sadness?
202- Today was tough because _________________. Why?
203- Who are you jealous of? Why?
204- Where do you want to go next?
205- What did you read today? Did it impact your day? How?
206- Who was kind to you today? What is their relationship to you?
207- Who is the last person you spoke with?
208- What makes you feel alive?
209- The store I frequent the most is _________________________.
210- How did you relax today? How often do you relax?
211- Describe your favorite pair of shoes you own now.
212- What rule had the most impact on your day?
213- How many pairs of shoes do you own?
214- Today I lost __________________.
215- I really wish ___________ hadn’t been invented. Why
216- What’s the most expensive thing you own that you can carry?
217- How much money is in your wallet right now? Are you a cash person or card person?
218- Why was today unique?
219- What did you leave undone today? Is it on the list to do tomorrow?
220- Today the weather was _________________________.
221- What was in your email today?
222- What do you wish you had said today? To Whom?
223- What was the biggest decision you made today?
224- What are you waiting for? Why are you waiting?
225- What is the prevailing truth about your day. What did you realize?
226- What is the last thing you settled for? Did you choose to settle?
227- Describe your day in a six word sentence.
228- What was the last thing that hurt you?
229- Did you use your time wisely today?
230- Did you have a dream last night? Describe it.
231- Where do you wish you were? Why?
232- What music did you hear today?
233- What did you have the most fun doing today?
234- What do you love most about what you get to do every day?
235- What hobbies do you have? Are they profitable?
236- What was the lowest point of your day?
237- How close to perfect was today? Why?
238- When did you last sing out loud? What did you sing? Did others hear you?
239- What was the last gathering you attended?
240- Share a secret thought.
241- List 5 things you wish you invented and why
242- What’s the last recipe you prepared? Was it successful?
243- Who is your most reliable friend? How long have you been friends?
244- What made you lose track of time today?
245- What are you confident about?
246- What is the last purchase you made? Was it worth it? For  you or someone else?
247- Did you show someone appreciation today? How?
248- How many push-ups can you do? Lunges? Chin ups? Do you care about exercise?
249- What are you looking forward to? Why?
250- What is your favorite dish to prepare? Is it for you or someone else?
251- There is no such thing as too much _____________________________.
252- What is the most important thing you were told today? By Whom?
253- What was the last thing you thought about today before you fell asleep?
254- What is the last book you read?
255- What project are you working on?
256- What is your most prized material possession? Why?
257- Were you ‘good’ or ‘bad’ today? How?
258- What is the smartest thing you did today?
259- What was in your mailbox today?
260- Today I was so ________________.
261- The last thing I bought myself was __________________.
262- Were you alone today? Do you like being alone?
263- Who was the last person you saw today?
264- What do you need to let go of? Why?
265- What movie are you looking forward to?
266- I just can’t ____________________.
267- Who did you text today?
268- Have you played the lottery? What would you do if you won?
269- A funny thing happened on the way to _____________________.
270- Name one thing you should toss right now, but just can’t. Why cant you?
271- What recently happened that made you proud of yourself?
272- Who did you see the most today?
273- Who inspires you? Why?
274- What was your horoscope today? Was it accurate?
275- What are you most afraid of? Why?
276- What’s the biggest thing you have going on?
277- What did you accomplish today?
278- Did you act your age today?
279- How busy was your day today?
280- Were you in a hurry today? Why?
281- What do you wish there was less of in the world?
282- What is stopping you? Can you do anything about it?
283- What were your chores today? Did you do them all? Favorites?
284- What was the last thing that made you laugh out loud?  Why?
285- Who did you eat dinner with? What was enjoyable or not enjoyable about it?
286- How did you make a difference in the world today?
287- What is one thing you take with you everywhere?
288- The last gift I’ve given was ________________.
289- What motivated you today?
290- Who is your craziest friend?
291- What did you have for lunch today?
292- What did you let go of?
293- What is the one thing you want to accomplish tomorrow?
294- What was the last gift you gave?
295- The last time I exercised ____________________. Favorite exercise?
296- What memories did you think about today? Happy or Sad?
297- What is the last risk you took? Why? Worth it?
298- What made you compromise?
299- Who do you look up to? Why?
300- On a scale of 1-10 my day was a __________. How would you improve it?

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

Entry Prompts for the Blocked Writers (101-200)

I told you there are 800+. So as to not overwhelm you... here is the next batch.
I thought it would be very cool to just do every single one... and check them off as they were posted. In order of course... but then I realized that was my OCD talking and that was never going to happen.
101- What did you have for dinner today?
102- What did you get done?
103- Who last called you on the phone?
104- Who are you in love with?
105- What are you grateful for?
106- The best part of today was ______________ .
107- My current favorite website is _________________.
108- What was the hardest thing you’re dealing with?
109- Today I wish I had more _________________.
110- Tomorrow will be better because ___________________.
111- What made today unusual?
112- What are you looking for from life?
113- What is your favorite thing to drink?
114- Today the temperature was ___________________.
115- How much did you spend at the grocery store the last time you went?
116- Tomorrow I will _________________________.
117- What was your last major purchase?
118- My house is a home because _______________________.
119- Who is the last person to tell you they loved you?
120- What is your favorite piece of art you own?
121- The most expensive bill I paid last month was ________.
122- What’s the last thing you apologized for?
123- My favorite color is ______________.
124- On a scale of 1-10 how is your health?
125- If you could do today over, would you change anything?
126- Name a person you wish you didn’t have to deal with today.
127- What is the largest TV screen in your house?
128- What time did you go to bed last night?
129- What did you buy today?
130- I wish I had ____________.
131- How many photos did you take today?
132- What book are you reading right now?
133- How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
134- Last thing you wanted but didn’t get.
135- What mood were you in today?
136- What was the last new thing you tried?
137- My biggest hope is _____________.
138- What has challenged your morals?
139- What kind of car are you driving?
140- List your pets.
141- What are three things you need to buy?
142- Today I felt really secure knowing __________________.
143- Whose life did you make a difference in today?
144- What is your super power?
145- What is annoying you?
146- What would have made today perfect?
147- What stresses you?
148- What did you do to take advantage of this extra day this year? 
149- The funniest thing you heard today.
150- If you could have a new talent what would you want?
151- Who is your best friend but not your spouse?
152- What do you wish you had left unsaid?
153- What was the first thing you ate or drank today?
154- Are you saving or spending?
155- On a scale of 1-10 how clean is your house? (10 being the cleanest)
156- What is the last song you listened to?
157- What relaxes you?
158- What is the most valuable thing you own?
159- What did you find inspiring today?
160- Are you happy? Why
161- How much “me” time did you take today? What did you do?
162- List three things you have faith in.
163- Who is the last person you said “I love you” to? Why do you love them?
164- Did you seize any opportunities? What are they? Why?
165- Where did you go today?
166- What advice were you given? Did you take it?
167- Today was ________________________. What happened?
168- What are you glad you did today? 
169- When was your last vacation? Where did you go?
170- The greatest wisdom comes from _____________________.
171- Who is your hero?
172- If you could have read one person’s mind today, who would you choose?
173- What was the easiest thing about today?
174- Did you thank anyone today? What for?
175- Did you work hard today? How do you feel about it?
176- Today was a complete ______________________. Why?
177- What are you seeking? For what reasons?
178- Did you make someone laugh today? Was it intentional?
179- What makes you sad? Why? What are you going to do about it?
180- Was today typical? Why/Why not?
181- Who do you trust the most?
182- What’s your next major deadline? What is it for?
183- What did you have for breakfast today?
184- Do you have any regrets today? What will you do to correct them?
185- When is the last time you danced?
186- List the people you live with and what makes them unique
187- What fears did you have today?
188- What did you forget?
189- What is your favorite TV show? What do you like so much about it?
190- I have faith that _________________.
191- Who is the last person you kissed?
192- What did you wear today? Does it reflect your mood?
193- What is testing you? Will you pass?
194- What’s the oldest thing you’re wearing today?
195- List 5 things you should have done today. Will you do them tomorrow?
196- Where did you spend the most time today?
197- Share a favorite quote. Why is it your favorite?
198- Who did you worry about today? Why?
199- Were you creative today? How?
200- What is the next major purchase you need to make? Why?

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Entry Prompts for the Blocked Writers (1-100)

Sometimes I just look at the blank page on my screen and think … about anything and everything I want to say but somehow it doesn’t get from my head to the page.  So much rattling around in there I can’t even manage to get one single thought together.
So I decided to spend some time surfing around the internet for ideas and habits I can use to organize my thoughts. I found – to my pleasant surprise – that I am not alone and other blog writers need prompting or topic suggestions to get the juices flowing.

The result was a list of 800+ journal prompts that can be used by anyone to get the writers block unblocked. I will post about 100 a day until I can get them all out to you. I know there will be repeats, similar entries but overall they are thought provoking and should help get you over the hump.

1-     What scares you
2-     Do you have a plan? Do you need a plan? Have you had a plan fall to pieces?
3-     What is your thought on soul mates
4-     Are you a worrier? Is there a particular worry you cant shake? How do you cope?
5-     Dear past “me”
6-     Dear future “me”
7-     10 places you have enjoyed visiting
8-     10 things you have done that you thought you could/would never do
9-     10 people you most admire and why
10- 10 favorite movies
11-  10 favorite books
12- 10 favorite blogs
13- 10 favorite songs
14- 5 short term goals
15-  5 long term goals
16- Nobody knows that I…
17-  Dear ____ - it weighs on me that I never told you….
18- The biggest lie I ever told was…
19- Anything you feel guilty about? Anything you need to be forgiven for?
20-  What is the worst thing you have ever done?
21- What is your secret desire?
22- What is the most outrageous thing you have ever done?
23- The most terrifying moment of my life was…
24- The most fun I have ever had…
25- The most surprised I have ever been…
26- The most disappointed I have ever been…
27- What are you looking forward to the most…
28-  Choose two old photographs to write about
29- Three things you cant live without
30-  Three celebrity crushes
31- Three favorite book character
32- Three favorite things to wear
33- Three things you want in a relationship
34- If you had to evacuate your home, what three things would you take with you?
35- Three pet peeves
36- Three things you would do if you weren’t so scared
37- Three favorite TV shows
38-   My saddest memory is…
39- Some things that make me happy are…
40-  How do you deal with anger?
41- How easy is it for you to forgive?
42- What is the dominant emotion in your life right now?
43- My favorite Sunday ritual
44- Favorite Holiday traditions
45- Things I always did with my mom…
46- If you could have dinner with any living person who?
47- If you could meet any fictional character, who would it be?
48-  If you could change one thing about your present life what would it be?
49- If you could live anywhere you wanted where?
50- If you could go back in time and change one thing from your past what is it?
51- What was your favorite childhood toy
52-  Did you ever get lost
53- Who was your best friend in elementary school
54- Did you ever run away from home
55- As a child  what did you want to be when you grew up
56- What was your favorite subject in school
57- Who was your favorite teacher
58- What is your very first memory
59- What was your favorite cartoon?
60-  What book did you read over and over as a child
61- What is your most vivid memory of the kitchen in your childhood
62- As a child, who was your favorite relative
63- Who made you feel good this week? Why?
64- What was the biggest mistake you made this week?
65- What did you do this week that moved you closer to reaching your goals?
66- Is there anything you did this week that you wish you had done differently?
67- What did you most enjoy doing this week?
68-  How did you procrastinate on important tasks this week?
69- What did you learn this week?
70- What is the funniest thing that happened to you this week?
71-  Write to someone you need to forgive
72- Write to someone who believed in you even when you didn’t believe in you
73- Write a letter to be read by each of your loved ones after you pass away
74- Write a fan letter
75- Write about your first dance
76- Write about your first crush
77- Write about your first week in college
78- Write about your first job
79-  Write about the first place you rented to live
80-  When did you feel truly independent for the first time
81-  What would you do if you knew you would not fail
82-   What would you do if you knew money was no object
83-   What would you ask for if a genie granted you three wishes
84-   What is your wildest dream
85- What would you do if you could live a day without consequences
86-   What grand adventure would you like to go on
87- Of you could become an expert on any subject what would it be
88-  What is your perfect day like
89-  What is your number one goal this year?
90-  What are you most grateful for?
91-  Are you content?
92- What is your best memory of last year?
93- What was the last major accomplishment you had?
94- What possession could you not live without?
95- Can people change?
96- What is the last “good” thing you ate?
97- What is your current favorite snack?     
98-  What made you smile today?
99- What’s your favorite accessory?
100- What is making you mad?

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Monday Musings... Even Though it is Tuesday

I have many blog entries I have started an never finished. I have decided that even though none of it makes sense I am going to post them here all at one time because individually there isn’t enough for a full post.

1. From March 9th 

Grief is a funny thing. I remember when my mother first passed away wondering if I would ever look back on her memory and smile. Prayed for the day that I could laugh at memories and not burst into tears at the mere thought of her. Little by little, those rays of joy slowly worked their way into my consciousness. It took at least a year before the tears began to subside and laughter began to emerge. There is so much truth in that saying that time heals all wounds. The scar will be there. Like a mark on my life but I can now look at it and smile – most of the time. 

Much like an amputee that can still feel the limb that has long been removed, I can feel my mother’s presence all the time and it isn’t nearly as painful as it was two years ago. I get signs every so often that she is with me. I recognize them and smile… those close to me that knew her well often ask if she has been around and there is always something to tell that makes us all laugh. She didn’t make her presence known on her birthday but, as she was always late anyway, she gave me a sign the day after. Here is what happened…

My son does not like riding the bus to after school care. It is over an hour as he is the last stop and he just doesn’t like to ride the bus that long. He has nothing to do for that hour and he is bored. He has been nagging me about wanting to be in carpool and not have to ride the bus. Yesterday he took matters into his own hands. Before we left home he hand wrote his own note:
“Please send Sammy to Carpool today” 
Handed it to me and told me to sign it. Like they would believe it.

2. If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.

Maybe that is why I am having difficulty writing lately. I have nothing nice to say… about anything. I feel guilty boring everyone with my rants and bitching about this and that. So I don’t write at all. Not a good plan. 
It is very easy to sit here in front of my computer and just piss, moan, bitch and complain about anything and everything. It takes too much effort to write something upbeat, encouraging and optimistic. And I don’t have a whole lot of energy to spare anyway.

But here is the kicker… my marriage, home life, children, friends and work are all fine.  Suffice it to say I am a little cranky about things here and there but overall I have nothing to complain about. So why is the glass half empty? 

Are my Chakras out of wack? Do I need to do some kind of cleanse to rid myself of the obvious toxins I am holding inside? Do I have a vitamin deficiency?  Do I need medication ? Jury is still out…

3. The Lord helps those who help themselves. 
How many times have I heard this? I will tell you how many… so many that I thought it was actually a quoted scripture. Yes… we learn something new every day and today I realized, even though I had many years of religious education, this is not an actual verse out of the Bible. Damn – I am a moron 

4. I am a stickler for reading the book before seeing the movie. I bought  The Martian because I love a space movie… OMG I couldn’t put that book down. I should have made NASA my career. DANG. I would have been a great NASA genius. 

5. Just for the record… tastes and smells change through life. I bought a bottle of (what I thought was) my all time favorite perfume… sprayed it on for the first time today and it has made me physically sick on my stomach… damn… that is an expensive dresser ornament. 
6. It dawned on me as I was watching Steel Magnolias last night that my best friend and I could easily play the parts of Ouiser and Clairee. When I texted her this was her response…. “ I know. You Bitch” … there you have it… confirmation.

7. People that ride bicycles and don’t know the rules of the road. They used to teach that in school… like the 3rd or 4th grade… apparently they don’t anymore because these people I encounter on bicycles are just riding anywhere they want. I drive a suburban and it makes me nuts to see someone heading towards me on a bicycle. And it never fails that I will say something ugly every time someone is on the wrong side of the road. 

8. When I was 30 I thought I knew what love was. 

Then I had a child.
When I was 40 I thought I knew what love was.
Then I had another child.
When I was 46 I realized I had no idea what the idea of love was… because to love you need to lose. I had never lost someone I loved deeply. And how can you know the depth of your ability to love unless you know the depth of sorrow when that person is gone. 
When I lost my mother it was a devastating blow I never saw coming.  But it taught me one thing above all else. I know my personal love gauge now and I am more in touch with how I feel about someone now because I have something to measure it against. 
Now that I have established this mental love meter I look at the world a little differently. I look at the people I love in my life differently. 
I treasure them more. And I tell them.

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Incredibly Sad

Whoopi said it all when she said  "this is what it sounds like when doves cry".
I haven't written in a while but this moved me to such sadness.
We will be finding unheard prince music in that studio/home of his for decades. That was his genius...channeled into his music.

Until that day .... when we see you in the purple rain....

Monday, February 1, 2016

Hot Mess vs. Hot Garbage

There is a difference you know.
Being a hot mess is totally different than being hot garbage. At least a hot mess can be improved upon whereas hot garbage is just that… dressed up garbage.

For example: The Kardashians are hot garbage. No doubt about it. And 75% of the time it has nothing to do with how they look. It is the whole package. The trailer park drama and the BS factor make them dumpster worthy. No amount of makeup, lip fillers, waist training or money will change the fact that they are attention starved fame gamers. It has made them rich, drove them all crazy and God love her, the sanest one of the bunch who was once a man has decided he would rather be a woman.  Hot Garbage… can’t fix it.

 Now, a hot mess, I think maybe the best example of a hot mess I can think of is possibly Paris Hilton. Now you know that girl was raised better than she has acted in the past. She has had the best of everything but consistently acted spoiled and entitled. Because she is a hot mess she has outgrown her wild childishness and now acts like she has some sense. A hot mess can always be rehabilitated…. Hot garbage can only be hauled to the dump.

So, the moral to the story is: if you must be one … be the hot mess… you can always just say you were young and dumb. You can look back on your time as a hot mess and laugh, joke and smile. If you choose to be hot garbage you can look back and do the same but more than likely you will be sitting on top of the trash pile at the local landfill while doing so.

Monday, January 11, 2016

Resolutions... 2016 Version

Ok – here it is… the New Year Resolution post… I have already written about writing more and being more active on my blog but here are a few more.
1-      Read more – I love to read. But I am torn… between the convenience of an ebook and the love of a real book. I love turning pages. I love the FEEL of a book in my hands. It makes me feel smart. Holding a device and turning digital pages is not the same to me and I think it makes me look like everyone else in the world looking at their phone or tablet. Holding a real book in my hands gives me the opportunity to imagine climbing into the world I am reading about and living the story. I don’t get that same feeling from an ebook. So I am going to read more REAL books.
2-     Appreciate more – I need to appreciate the little things more. The baby steps in this life that add up to the big steps and monumental memories are the ones I want to notice and appreciate more. The dusting can wait. The dishes can wait. When you have the opportunity to spend precious time with someone you love …the little chores can wait.
3-     Save more – Lord have mercy… I am a spender not a saver. I need to save more. I have started collecting all the change laying around the house and have about two mason jars now. I will also start putting away more out of my paycheck each week… if I never see it in there I won’t miss it. A little adds up to a lot over time.
4-     Love more - When I was 30 I thought I knew what love was. Then I had a child. When I was 40 I thought I knew what love was. Then I had another child. When I was 46 I realized I had no idea what the idea of love was… because to love you need to lose. I had never lost someone I loved deeply. And how can you know the depth of your ability to love unless you know the depth of sorrow when that person is gone.  When I lost my mother it was a devastating blow I never saw coming.  But it taught me one thing above all else. I know my personal love gauge now and I am more in touch with how I feel about someone now because I have something to measure it against. Now that I have established this mental love meter I look at the world a little differently. I look at the people I love in my life differently. I treasure them more. And I tell them.
5-     Lose more – Weight that is… 40 pounds gone over a years time. It came off slowly which is good. Now I need to keep it going. There is a pair of pants hanging in my closet…come on… we all have that pair. The goal pants. The pants we wore when we felt we looked our personal best. I have had these pants for 16 years. When I became pregnant with my first child they were hung in the closet. They are still on that same hangar. Sad but true. I will get there one day. And if I don’t do anything but put them on one time and then donate them that is ok.
6-     Try more -  Instead of saying “it is what it is” maybe trying a bit harder and it be “it could be what it could be” . Putting forth that little bit of extra effort and see if that improves some of the situations I would normally cast aside as circumstances beyond my control. Maybe things would turn out differently for everyone with just a bit of positive input.

That is my first list. I am sure there will be another list. And another list. This is going to be an interesting year!!